What more than what's written in the title can I really say? It's been years since I've blogged. Actually I believe my last blog talks about how much stuff I had on the go at that time and how if I survived how I would blog again.
Well....I'm alive.
Hopefully there isn't anyone who I haven't maintained contact with, who actually used to read this, and who is now having a mild heart attack because of my resurrection.
Life has changed A LOT since that last blog. Where do I begin? Well, I'm no longer at the same job, I'm no longer in school, I'm no longer the partying single girl, but....I am much happier.
Ironically, two years almost to the date after writing that last blog post I found myself entering into a stage in my life that I must say, has been the best so far. September 2010, found me new a career venture, new opportunites, new challenges (some in hindsight have changed my life for the better) and the best part, a new relationship.
First and foremost, here goes the story about "the best part". Who would've known that because I spent years chasing what I thought I wanted and what I now know was so very very wrong for me, I delayed figuring out what was perfect for me. I have often thought, if only I was wiser then, where would I be now? Where would my relationship with Ken be now? But, you know what....I probably wouldn't have changed a thing. And I don't think Ken would have either. At least, I hope not....
In March 2010, Ken, this adorable guy at work, asked me out for supper. I remember distinctly leaving the restaurant that night thinking to myself, "this is the best first date I've ever been on!! Wait....was this a first date?" Ken easied me into the idea of being truly courted and cared for, which believe me was hard for a woman who was used to be so independant and self-reliant. And since that first date and some amazing moments thereafter, Ken has become the person that I couldn't imagine spending my life without. The best part - my friends and family adore him almost as much as I do. True bliss!
Now, the less mushy, more hard hitting life details. My career since 2008 has made a few detours, hit a couple speedbumps and pretty much done everything but take me for a magic carpet ride. Was it expected, no. Has it been difficult, yes. Have I learned anything, absolutely. And in the end, isn't that what it's all about?
Having quickly reflected on where I've been, what I've done, who I've met since my last post in 2008, all I can condense it down to is I've not only aged, but I've grown up. I've not only changed, but I've lived. What I saw as failures, where sometimes successes in disguise. What I experienced as hurt, was actually what I needed to find the pleasure. What has happened to me, I'm grateful for the opportunity, the lessons and the character it has given me.
So where to now? Who knows. Tomorrow awaits.
PS - For those still here, it won't be two years before I blog again.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Work, school, work, work, work
Woah, what have I got myself into? Day one of school has shed some light on how things may be a bit stressful for the next 6 weeks (2 weeks especially). Right now, I'm working my full time job, going back to school (taking Business Admin) and working a contract job. The contract job is over on the 18th, so it's just super stressful for the next couple weeks.
Class started today and it looks like it may be pretty interesting. Today was a little too basic for me but, classes don't really start until Monday. Since Thursday is my busy school day, its my day off from work. I have some campus crap that I have to do tomorrow (ie: buy books, get my ID card) then, I'm veggin the whole rest of the day. My brain needs a day off. I've been roped into doing work on my contract job whenever I've had a down moment (including my supper break tonight from my real job) but, I refuse to let that happen tomorrow. I may have to get someone to come in and hide my laptop.
What's more interesting in my life besides my crazy schedule right now? Umm...that would be nothing. That's how fun I am. And franky, I'm too tired to think anymore so this pathetic excuse for a blog is going to end. I'll blog again after the 18th to let you know I survived!
Class started today and it looks like it may be pretty interesting. Today was a little too basic for me but, classes don't really start until Monday. Since Thursday is my busy school day, its my day off from work. I have some campus crap that I have to do tomorrow (ie: buy books, get my ID card) then, I'm veggin the whole rest of the day. My brain needs a day off. I've been roped into doing work on my contract job whenever I've had a down moment (including my supper break tonight from my real job) but, I refuse to let that happen tomorrow. I may have to get someone to come in and hide my laptop.
What's more interesting in my life besides my crazy schedule right now? Umm...that would be nothing. That's how fun I am. And franky, I'm too tired to think anymore so this pathetic excuse for a blog is going to end. I'll blog again after the 18th to let you know I survived!
Monday, July 21, 2008
Vacation
So, I've quickly learned that the one thing I love about vacation is that it's completely your time, so you can do whatever you please.
And that's exactly what I've been doing for the past week. No major excursions, no whirl-wind tours. Just kicking back relaxing good times. Lots of time by the pool; a couple days at the beach; an afternoon road trip with a friend; drinks, good food and more than likely, a few pounds.
I can live with the few pounds. Relaxing for a week was totally worth it. Sure there are a couple things that I wish I could've squeezed in there while I had the time off. But, alas they didn't happen. Some things that did happen though made the lost items seem easier to deal with.
And....I got to spend a couple days of my vacation with my favorite guy in the whole wide world - KAYNE! He's so adorable!!
But, back to work tomorrow....back to reality. All I can hope is that tomorrow is an easy day at the office. Sigh. Why can't every day be vacation?
And that's exactly what I've been doing for the past week. No major excursions, no whirl-wind tours. Just kicking back relaxing good times. Lots of time by the pool; a couple days at the beach; an afternoon road trip with a friend; drinks, good food and more than likely, a few pounds.
I can live with the few pounds. Relaxing for a week was totally worth it. Sure there are a couple things that I wish I could've squeezed in there while I had the time off. But, alas they didn't happen. Some things that did happen though made the lost items seem easier to deal with.
And....I got to spend a couple days of my vacation with my favorite guy in the whole wide world - KAYNE! He's so adorable!!
But, back to work tomorrow....back to reality. All I can hope is that tomorrow is an easy day at the office. Sigh. Why can't every day be vacation?
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Slacker
So I'm posting because Qortnee has put me to shame lately with the updates on her site. I feel like a pathetic slacker. But really...I have nothing to blog about.
It's almost my birthday...therefore I'm almost a geezer. Actually, it honestly is a bit weird for me. I've never been one of those people to set out a life plan in stone for myself - because I always felt that was setting yourself up for disappointment and really, with the external things that can often be disappointing in life, why set up an internal barometer too. Don't confuse this with not having goals...I just have never mentally established any "by the time I'm 25 I want to have...." But, since I'm now 2 years shy of the big 3-0, I'm starting to think that maybe I should rethink this theory.
A person I knew in high school had these milestone markers for certain ages in life. As much as I thought then she was crazy, from what I understand she had achieved many of the items on her list. Obviously we haven't kept in touch, so I don't know if she's achieved them "on time" or not, but nonetheless, her system apparently worked for her.
I still don't know if I can say that by the time I'm 35 I want to be at this point in life or have achieved this. How do I know that what I want at 28 is what I'll want at 30, 40 or 50? Life is full of lessons and if we put ourselves on a specific path does that put us at risk for missing unexpected pleasures? What if I map my life out and then someone or something comes into my life that makes me tempted to walk down a path other than the one that I had mapped out? Do I stick to my ideal age-oriented goals or do I risk it all for something that could potentially make me happier? Let's face it, I know myself well enough to know that I'd probably take the latter. I've always had a special place in my heart for the last line of "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost.
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
I will always be the type of person who wants to know that my choices make a difference. Whether it's a personal difference or one more broad. All I know that that choices I make in life, regardless of how they are perceived by others have to make me happy and make a difference in my own life. If I had a mapped out plan that said that by X-age I want to have this specific thing accomplished, I want to know that if this new, interesting adventure came along, that I'd be willing to risk veering from my plan if it meant a truly happier Crystal.
So, I guess, this rant and basically typing my thoughts has made me firmly establish that I can't map out my life in such a structured way. Afterall, "in the book of life, the answers aren't in the back" - Charlie Brown. My map?? By the end of my life I hope that I have made choices that made me a stronger, more intelligent woman who is happy and who has spent a lifetime loving and being loved.
Well...I guess I had something to blog about afterall. xo
It's almost my birthday...therefore I'm almost a geezer. Actually, it honestly is a bit weird for me. I've never been one of those people to set out a life plan in stone for myself - because I always felt that was setting yourself up for disappointment and really, with the external things that can often be disappointing in life, why set up an internal barometer too. Don't confuse this with not having goals...I just have never mentally established any "by the time I'm 25 I want to have...." But, since I'm now 2 years shy of the big 3-0, I'm starting to think that maybe I should rethink this theory.
A person I knew in high school had these milestone markers for certain ages in life. As much as I thought then she was crazy, from what I understand she had achieved many of the items on her list. Obviously we haven't kept in touch, so I don't know if she's achieved them "on time" or not, but nonetheless, her system apparently worked for her.
I still don't know if I can say that by the time I'm 35 I want to be at this point in life or have achieved this. How do I know that what I want at 28 is what I'll want at 30, 40 or 50? Life is full of lessons and if we put ourselves on a specific path does that put us at risk for missing unexpected pleasures? What if I map my life out and then someone or something comes into my life that makes me tempted to walk down a path other than the one that I had mapped out? Do I stick to my ideal age-oriented goals or do I risk it all for something that could potentially make me happier? Let's face it, I know myself well enough to know that I'd probably take the latter. I've always had a special place in my heart for the last line of "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost.
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
I will always be the type of person who wants to know that my choices make a difference. Whether it's a personal difference or one more broad. All I know that that choices I make in life, regardless of how they are perceived by others have to make me happy and make a difference in my own life. If I had a mapped out plan that said that by X-age I want to have this specific thing accomplished, I want to know that if this new, interesting adventure came along, that I'd be willing to risk veering from my plan if it meant a truly happier Crystal.
So, I guess, this rant and basically typing my thoughts has made me firmly establish that I can't map out my life in such a structured way. Afterall, "in the book of life, the answers aren't in the back" - Charlie Brown. My map?? By the end of my life I hope that I have made choices that made me a stronger, more intelligent woman who is happy and who has spent a lifetime loving and being loved.
Well...I guess I had something to blog about afterall. xo
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Choo choo trains and horsies...
Well, although the title of this blog may not give it away totally...I got to spend the weekend with Kayne. Mom, Chris and I went up to Moncton for the weekend, met up with a few family members and Kayne! We spent the weekend at Crystal Palace and Kayne had a blast. He'd wake up each morning and after barely opening his eyes he'd say "swimming, horsies, choo choo train!" That meant his agenda for the day consisted of Chris taking him swimming in the pool (which you could see from our hotel room window) then spending the remainder of the day on the train and merry-go-round rides in Crystal Palace.
As much as I got kinda tired of playing on baby rides for 2 days, I loved spending time with Kayne! Also, in true Crystal form, I stole Mom away from my aunts for a bit and the two of us got in some much needed retail therapy. I think I really needed a weekend away...a change of scenery for a bit. And being with Kayne truly makes me appreciate the small things in life: holding little hands, surprised looks, genuine happiness, cuddles, the list is endless really......
Here's a cute picture from the weekend. Oh, I miss him already!!
As much as I got kinda tired of playing on baby rides for 2 days, I loved spending time with Kayne! Also, in true Crystal form, I stole Mom away from my aunts for a bit and the two of us got in some much needed retail therapy. I think I really needed a weekend away...a change of scenery for a bit. And being with Kayne truly makes me appreciate the small things in life: holding little hands, surprised looks, genuine happiness, cuddles, the list is endless really......
Here's a cute picture from the weekend. Oh, I miss him already!!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Ok ok....enough nudging
So I've heard on a few occasions "October was a long time ago" and you guys are right I have been at the top of the list for slackers in the blog department for quite awhile. But, sometimes I feel like I just don't have anything to blog about. But, regardless....to please the masses (ok the masses probably only consist of the 2 people I know frequent this page), here goes a blog....
Since October of course a lot of things have changed. Living at home is often a challenge. (Not that I don't love my Mom to pieces) I had hoped that living back at home would help me to save some money for my first house. It hasn't done much of that thus far (a few personal things has given my money a new home other than my bank account) and unexpected expenses have occured, ie: my laptop decided it wanted to quit our relationship and I was forced to move on. That's ok...when it sees the new prettier Dell in my life it'll realize how easy it was to replace him. (Yes, I refer to some of my items of technology on a relationship basis because my laptop, tv, dvr and Wii are the things that I spend the most time with). coughlosercough. There, I've said it for you.
I've tried to interject some time in there for real human beings, but I've been stressed to the max lately and there are very few human beings that I have the patience for right now. (Pathetic to say outloud, but since I'm typing it, it's not so pathetic) There are the few friends who have been steady as a rock and have taken way more crap off of me than they need to sometimes. But, if we can't just be ourselves even when we're hating the world, with friends than can you ever really consider them honest-to-goodness real friends?
Umm...what else. I'm flying to Ottawa next week and I'm so excited. I have always considered Ottawa a home away from home for me. Since Dad moved back, I really didn't think I'd have a reason or opportunity to get my yearly visits to the city. Oh how I was wrong! In September the Canadian Conservation Institute brought me to the city for a symposim and now Canada Council for the Arts in bringing my in to do some work for them. Sometimes I am still shocked at how often I get hired by various organizations to travel and participate in meetings. I'm flattered don't get me wrong but am still surprised that they're hiring lil ole me. Everytime I get a phone call for another contract job I think of how Martha has often said that I have a golden resume. Maybe I really am a professional grown up. Pfft!!!
Ok, I can't think of anything else. I'm dying to take a long hot bath (I got this pesky cough which I need to shake before I travel). So, an anti-cold bath is my goal, comfy pjs and crawl in bed to watch tv is my plans for the night. I was suppose to do some reading tonight, but I'm in way too good of a mood to spend the evening working. So instead, I'm goofing off and watching a new favorite tv show. Weeeee!
Love and hugs!
Since October of course a lot of things have changed. Living at home is often a challenge. (Not that I don't love my Mom to pieces) I had hoped that living back at home would help me to save some money for my first house. It hasn't done much of that thus far (a few personal things has given my money a new home other than my bank account) and unexpected expenses have occured, ie: my laptop decided it wanted to quit our relationship and I was forced to move on. That's ok...when it sees the new prettier Dell in my life it'll realize how easy it was to replace him. (Yes, I refer to some of my items of technology on a relationship basis because my laptop, tv, dvr and Wii are the things that I spend the most time with). coughlosercough. There, I've said it for you.
I've tried to interject some time in there for real human beings, but I've been stressed to the max lately and there are very few human beings that I have the patience for right now. (Pathetic to say outloud, but since I'm typing it, it's not so pathetic) There are the few friends who have been steady as a rock and have taken way more crap off of me than they need to sometimes. But, if we can't just be ourselves even when we're hating the world, with friends than can you ever really consider them honest-to-goodness real friends?
Umm...what else. I'm flying to Ottawa next week and I'm so excited. I have always considered Ottawa a home away from home for me. Since Dad moved back, I really didn't think I'd have a reason or opportunity to get my yearly visits to the city. Oh how I was wrong! In September the Canadian Conservation Institute brought me to the city for a symposim and now Canada Council for the Arts in bringing my in to do some work for them. Sometimes I am still shocked at how often I get hired by various organizations to travel and participate in meetings. I'm flattered don't get me wrong but am still surprised that they're hiring lil ole me. Everytime I get a phone call for another contract job I think of how Martha has often said that I have a golden resume. Maybe I really am a professional grown up. Pfft!!!
Ok, I can't think of anything else. I'm dying to take a long hot bath (I got this pesky cough which I need to shake before I travel). So, an anti-cold bath is my goal, comfy pjs and crawl in bed to watch tv is my plans for the night. I was suppose to do some reading tonight, but I'm in way too good of a mood to spend the evening working. So instead, I'm goofing off and watching a new favorite tv show. Weeeee!
Love and hugs!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Wowzers...
Sorry, sorry, sorry. I've been a major blog slacker.
Things have been super busy. I'm in the process of moving and I realize how much I hate having stuff spread over two places. I so can't wait to have my own house someday so I don't have to keep bobbing from place to place which never really are my own.
I'm cranky today (I probably shouldn't really be blogging then), but I think it's because I am so completely over tired. There was a conference at work for the past 4 days, which I was on the steering committee for and I put in an extra 18+ hours to see that everything went smoothly.
I'm due for a vacation - which I'm taking a day on Monday to rest after the official moving date. Already I'm looking forward to it and I'm thinking about making a spa appointment for at least some kind of forced relaxation that day.
I know...lame update....but at least it's a blog. Tired Crystal is going to make popcorn and veg out for a bit. I'll blog again to let you know how the move went.
Things have been super busy. I'm in the process of moving and I realize how much I hate having stuff spread over two places. I so can't wait to have my own house someday so I don't have to keep bobbing from place to place which never really are my own.
I'm cranky today (I probably shouldn't really be blogging then), but I think it's because I am so completely over tired. There was a conference at work for the past 4 days, which I was on the steering committee for and I put in an extra 18+ hours to see that everything went smoothly.
I'm due for a vacation - which I'm taking a day on Monday to rest after the official moving date. Already I'm looking forward to it and I'm thinking about making a spa appointment for at least some kind of forced relaxation that day.
I know...lame update....but at least it's a blog. Tired Crystal is going to make popcorn and veg out for a bit. I'll blog again to let you know how the move went.
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